Saturday, May 1, 2010

Things do change.

Yes, change is the only constant thing in the world. I've heard that too many times, for different reasons.
I look back, and I see how much I've changed, how much we have changed.

My Grade Six self would not be good friends with my Third Year High School self.
Maybe the way I approach the things that come into my life has changed, but now that I think of it, the things I care about barely changed.
Back then, all I cared about was being with my friends, surviving school, getting the attention of the people I love, and receiving the respect and trust from my family that I thought I deserved.
Now, those things still matter to me. A lot. My reactions and beliefs have changed a lot, though.

I learned that somehow, after saying a lot of things that you believe in, later on it is possible that you will have contradictory beliefs. What I say now may be the opposite of what I'll say tomorrow.

I know myself as a person who hates changes. I hate plans being canceled, I hate being disappointed, and most especially, I hate broken promises.
I know, I'm not perfect and all, but that's how I am.
When a person is important to me, I believe everything he/she tells me. I trust people easily. The problem with that is when that person isn't true to his/her words, I get hurt.

I guess I'm too sensitive. And sentimental. That's a part of me that hasn't changed over the years.
I may have learned some lessons, but I guess there's one that I haven't mastered yet.
I love a lot, and expect to get something back, then get disappointed if I don't.
That's wrong. I know.

1 comment:

  1. Yes, the Grade 6 and First Year HS me would definitely be enemies with the 3rd year me. :)
    The only permanent thing in this world is change. The ironies of life. :)

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