I'm all out of love.

But maybe I'm not so lost without you.

I'm not lost, you are. I can't find you anymore.
Last time I checked, we still live in the same province, and study in the same school.
But where are you, really?

I am laughing at the people who tried to separate us for the coming school year.
Why? Because they thought that by putting us in separate sections, they'd be able to stop us from being together.
And they're wrong. Fucking wrong.
We already are not together. We already did that.
So thanks to them, but their efforts don't count for much. Hahahaha.

I am not saying that it was all your fault.
My insecurities, doubts, demands, etc. may have been too much for you.
But when you told me to help you out, I did. I stopped waiting for you to be the one to contact me first. But what did you do? You didn't recognize my efforts. You ignored me. And that hurts.
I seriously thought it will work out.

Again, they were right; we were wrong.

What's stupid about this is that we are one of the few "couples" in our batch that are "official".
I mean, you're my boyfriend, and I'm your girlfriend.
It's not just "MU", as they call it.
But we are not living up to that.

I feel as if I'm just kidding myself now, when people ask me if we're still together.
I say, "Technically."
Ha. Technically. How do you like that?
Oops. I forgot. You don't know about that.
In fact, you don't know anything.

I'm tired of being the last one on your list of priorities. After your family, barkada, and others..
You have time for them. For me, I guess it'll be unfair to say that you don't. Because you do.
You have time for me, but it's not enough. You give me attention other people would give their acquaintances.
Or in some cases, their taken-for-granted friends.
I'm like a friend that you'll look for when all hope is gone for you.When you've run out of people to talk to.

To sum it all up, it seems like you're not in love anymore. Not with me.
And guess what? Lately, you taught me to get used to that.
Maybe..sooner or later, I won't be in love with you anymore.
I'd stop trying to communicate.

I'll talk to you. When I get the chance. And I'll tell you all these.
Maybe not all, but everything you need to know before we decide what we'd do for our so-called relationship.